Cast

‘Darkness’ is my 3^rd music video and one of my best songs I’ve recorded. I’m very happy about the way it turned out. Gregory Andre is a brilliant director he had a good view on the video capturing the feeling and emotion of the song and portraying it in profound way. Rob Burn’s played the guitar with feeling which gave the song so much substance.

When I had finished recording the song I just knew I had to make a video. I wanted a simple decent video. Greg did such a good job on ‘My Beautiful Senorita’ video. I asked Greg if he wanted to work on this video. If he had declined I would have shot it in England but Greg was happy to do it, so we shot it in Chiang Mai.

The Bad Boy Lovin' video (My first video) in which I did when I was 18 was totally not me. The director just kept saying to me. ‘Be aggressive, slap that women’s arse’ and basically just be something I’m not. I just did it! I remember when filming the video when the camera was rolling. I was acting. Then off set I was myself. I remember the girls in the video saying ‘you’re a nice guy; its funny how you quickly change.’ You know, I was just playing the role.

When I did the ’My Beautiful Senorita’ video at 19. I was still living in England but I had come to Chiang Mai on holiday. We filmed it whilst I was on holiday. Greg did the video. Greg had planned all of it so I just did everything he told me to do. Greg was really cool. He had really cool ideas he did a really good job on that.

Moreover with Darkness I got more of a say on it and it was more me. I wanted a supporting lead girl. I wanted emotion in this video. Kelsy Soderlund ended up playing the role. She did a decent job. Greg gave it 100%, I gave it 100%, and she did! If one of us was to not be dedicated it would just be a let down to the whole project. Kelsy was really organised and on fire. She turned up on time to shoot. She was ready! She had the most energy in party scene. She was the first one there and last one to leave. For her first time acting she did the job very well. I would like to work with her again on something in the future.

We ended up shooting the video at my house in Chiang Mai and in a car park. The party scene in the 2^nd verse was the craziest scene. It started of with me wanting to where a gladiator costume, so me and Greg were thinking how can we make this work so we thought lets just have a small party. Greg said to me ‘we will just act drunk.’ I sent an email out to everyone saying ‘One drink, then fake drinking.’ Greg got back to me and said ‘maybe you guys should drink.’ As long as everyone can function it will just be more real. So I said ‘yeah we will see how it goes.’ So the first drink led onto another, then another, then we went straight for it!!!! My self and Rob A were drinking Hennessey, Kelsy was on Vodka. Brett was on Johnny Black label, Rob B was on Jack Daniels. Marika was feeling a little ill so she didn’t drink. Greg was directing and filming so no drinking for him of course. There’s some funny footage. We had a great time.

The cast was really good. Everyone had there own style so it made it interesting. There was a lot of delays in this video from when I decided to do the video. People not in the country at the same time. People feeling sick, a change in story line and work loads but we got there in the end and the result was worth it!

I’m really happy about the way this project has turned out it's given me something to galvanise myself on. I went though a bit of a bad patch right after filming the video. I went into a relapse of past issues which were affecting my life. I had progressed in so many areas over the last 3 years, but I really ignored some issues I had with myself and the build up just made me explode. I've had time to clear my head up and I've sorted out these personal issues. Now I just need to get back to where I'm supposed to be. I've got things in life I need to conquer like my eating disorder which goes back to my teens. I go days with just eating one meal a day which isn't normal. My energy level's just get completely out of wack. It make me feel uncomfortable like if I'm with a girl and she eats way more than me and I cant finish my food. I've got a lot of catching up to do on some simple things.

I've got good people around me. I just want to stay focused on music, acting and other work. I also want to help others progress in any arts they have. I got to take things step by step. I just got to better myself and look to the future!